Held fast; Reflections

The online job interview results were out after a long prayerful wait, on the portal it read “‘APPOINTED, TO REPORT TO… “. There was mixed feelings of undersevedness,ecstatic joy and sigh of relief.
Lord haven’t you shown me mercy? Surely you have!
What next?
I waited for the day for our final re-posting to our respective work station as clearly stated ‘You can work in every part of the country’
The day came, as we sat in the RC’ s (Regional Coordinator) office, after arriving very early, we registered and waited for the final compilation in order to be posted to different parts of the vast region of the second largest province in the country. We were quite a number of colleagues who had reported that early chilly morning and more were to come in  subsequent days ahead!
Each one of us anxious, perhaps the biggest question lingering each one of my colleagues was; “Where will i be posted?”
We even discussed the possibilities of being posted to this and that place
I dreaded being posted to a far place, knowing truly of such harsh climatic conditions there.
Was i unkind? Since i hadn’t been to those regions and i had already developed phobia of the ‘place’ beforehand.
I waited as i conversed with a colleague seated next to me, alive to the reality of being sent anywhere!
“fear not, for I am with you;…” Isaiah 41:10a. I thought. I should not give in to fear or let it get the upper hand. He has not given me the Spirit of fear, but of power..
Really? LORD you are with me now, here and then in my uneasiness, unrestness, unquiteness. I comforted myself that Yes, where he provides, He sustains, He guides and directs. “He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.
Psalm 23:3.
Wherever He guides, however He does it. I need to know it not by reason but by faith. I ought to trust Him and trust Him truly and by faith.
“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good…”
Romans 8:28a.

The RC came escorted by his staff (senior officials), he entered into the building with pomp, we aptly stood up in respect to the ‘boss’, after a few congratulatory messages, words of cautions, wisdom and clarity, he began reading out our new work stations!. Fatherly he was. I saw a mentor in Him! What a gentleman!
He went through the list,read my name, i stood acknowledged ‘Thank you sir’. Knowing honestly that i had been posted to a far place, i ‘never’ expected, wished or ‘prayed’ for!

Fast forward… SIX months into my new work station, totally not where i thought I’ll be, but i was ready and confident that He had foreordained me to be here before i knew it and that His hand guides me as His child, and for me,”I bless the Lord who gives me counsel” Psalm 16:7. Aware that i needed Him then and i need Him even now to navigate come what may.
I can confidently say like the Psalmist.
“The Lord is my chosen portion and my cup; you hold my lot. The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places (even here where i am); indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.
Psalm 16:5‭-‬6.
O i have loved how has carried me. By grace i am trusting Him moment by moment to keep anchoring me in Him.
Surely ” The righteous flourish like the palm tree and grow like a cedar in Lebanon. They are planted in the house of the Lord; they flourish in the courts of our God.
Psalm 92:12‭-‬13.

I am flourishing like a palm tree.
I am planted where He wants me to be. He wants me to be here, ‘at such a times as this’. Esther 4:14b.

We are His. He guides us in places unknown. He holds us fast.

In Risen Christ.


He beckon us, come to Me

“You are welcome ”, a voice echoed from a member of the ushering team, as i entered the church for sunday fellowship.
I smiled back and nodded with an acknowledgement ; ”Thank you”
I walked quietly and took my seat at the second row of the pew, as the  praise and worship team sang and danced. Gently placing my Bible, Notebook and mobile phone on my seat, i stood up to join the team in singing, the words of the Psalmist in Psalms  100:2″ Worship the LORD with gladness. Come before him, singing with joy, rang in my mind… Sing to the Lord with gladness (i pondered) …. I will sing with a joyful heart… (echoed in my mind) . But even throughout the praise and worship session, i knew deeply within my heart that i am not giving 100% (percent) praise and worship,rather not in gladness and joyful of heart to the One who deserves it, to the One worth of it all!

My heart and mind why not be still?
Why not rejoice fully?
Why the half-hearted rejoice and gladness?
My mind wondering out there and back, memories from present to past, back and forth…

I mourned why should i not give Him all that He deserve?  Is truly my heart tuned with His?

But true to His Word. We are reminded that we have not come to a congregation of terror or dread.
“For you have not come to what could be touched, to a blazing fire, to darkness, gloom, and storm,to the blast of a trumpet, and the sound of words. Those who heard it begged that not another word be spoken to them,for they could not bear what was commanded: If even an animal touches the mountain, it must be stoned.
… The appearance was so terrifying that Moses said, I am trembling with fear” Hebrews 12:18-21
They could not even come nearer, the whole scene was terrifying and dreadful.

.. But
“Instead, you have come to Mount Zion and to the city of the living God, the heavenly Jerusalem, with its thousands of angels. You have come to the joyful gathering of God’s first-born, whose names are written in heaven. You have come to God, who is the judge of all people, and to the spirits of good people made perfect.
You have come to Jesus, who arranged the new covenant, and to the sprinkled blood that promises much better things than does the blood of Abel.”
Hebrews 12:22-24.

Alas, shouldn’t this melt your heart with joy and gladness?. We have come to Him.
Definitely it should for you and i, breaking the barriers of half-hearted gladness and joy.
That is why we ought have come to Him!.

“You (I) are made for a Person and a Place. Jesus is the Person. Heaven is the Place”- Randy Alcorn.

Our sins are forgiven for us who believe in Him.” “And Christ himself is the means by which our sins are forgiven, and not our sins only, but also the sins of everyone.” 1 John 2:2.
We are loved and we are His. “See how much the Father has loved us! His love is so great that we are called God’s children. 1 John 3:1a

Sometimes we can be tempted to guilt, self – pity, wallow in shame and to self – absorption and a desire to ‘measure up’, but we are not at their mercies any more and we should not!. “Even if we feel guilty, God is greater than our feelings, and he knows everything”. 1 John 3:20

We are Loved. We are accepted. We are His.

Fellow brethren we can come to Him joyfully, unrestrained, in defiant joy not based on what we ought to do for Him but what He accomplished for us.

In Him.